Thank U Alanis Morissette

This is my song of the moment, part of the soundtrack of my life right now, in particular the lyrics "How about me not blaming you for everything/How about me enjoying the moment for once/How about how good it feels to finally forgive you/How about grieving it all one at a time" and "The moment I let go of it was/The moment I got more than I could handle/The moment I jumped off of it was/The moment I touched down". I didn't get gratitude before, because I felt I had nothing to be grateful for, other than my family and some friends. Now I'm starting to see the freedom that not carrying your past with you (as a means of defining you) brings, and I can feel the draining weight go :)

Remember me? Friends Reunited

I joined "Friends Reunited" several years ago, partly out of curiousity. For those who don't know it's a website where you can list the schools, workplaces, houses etc you went to or lived in and re-connect as friends with names from your past. I used to send a note to people I recognised, but rarely got replies back and if I did, the school friendships never got re-started again. It got me thinking why join and say would love to hear from anyone who remembers me, when you don't really want to reply? Or is it like sitting in a window front in a long line with a sign "Remember Me?" round your neck, waiting for someone to point and say yes? However it did allow me to say thank you to an ex-teacher of mine for teaching me to look for the adventure in things - he was an ex-A Level Maths teacher of mine. Some thoughts on perhaps how you might remember someone from school:

Remember me?

I was the one next to thingy,

Had chickenpox in the spring

I was new, sat opposite you

But you never spoke to me.

Your name is familar

But your face I can't see

I joined, filled in my details

And waited, but do you remember me?

xx

Gratitude

I'm grateful for the positivity of others for reminding me who I truly am, from time to time, particularly when my true self is lost under the mist of depression. Thank you. Julie xx

Thank U Alanis Morissette

Each time I listen to this song, it inspires me or I see something that hits a chord. It was actually instrumental in making me think about "letting go".

xx

Thank U

How 'bout getting off of these antibiotics?

How 'bout stopping eating when I'm filled up?

How 'bout them transparent dangling carrots?

How 'bout that ever elusive kudo?

Thank you India

Thank you terror

Thank you disillusionment

Thank you frailty

Thank you consequence

Thank you thank you silence

How 'bout me not blaming you for everything?

How 'bout me enjoying the moment for once?

How 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you/

How 'bout grieving it all one at a time?

Thank you India…

The moment I let go of it was

The moment I got more than I could handle

The moment I jumped off of it was

The moment I touched down

How 'bout no longer being masochistic?

How 'bout remembering your divinity?

How 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out?

How 'bout not equating death with stopping

Thank you India

Thank you providence

Thank you disillusionment

Thank you nothingness

Thank you clarity

Thank you thank you silence