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A jewel shining through

Sunday, 24 November 2013

Me

I am too much, I'm not enough

I laugh, I smile, I cry

But each day I learn and became

The true, beautiful self that I am

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A jewel shining through: "A Beautiful Soul" learning to believe it. My creative soul inside dances: words and ideas spill out sometimes, but I sometimes lack the confidence to let them out, do justice to them - I'm a trying-to-be-ex perfectionist. I'm looking to find the confidence to listen to that music and have the confidence in my skills and abilities, that I'm good enough to commit things to paper, and to the outside. I’m drawn to quotes, photography, patterns and allsorts. I want to learn to use colour more and be less afraid, being it in my pictures, my words or life :)

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Always Blessings - Cindy Campo
Beautiful Soul - Cindy Campo
Brian Kennedy at the Special Olympics
Brian Kennedy's slower version of Brown Eyed Girl
Bulgarian Idol - "Ken Leee"
Cyberman Call Centre
Dr Phil's Life Strategies
Feeling Good - John Barrowman
I am What I am - John Barrowman
In Perfect Harmony - sung by Brian Kennedy
Thank U - Alanis Morrisette (live)
The Dash Movie
We're Going on A Bear Hunt - Michael Rosen
You Raise Me Up (accapella) - Brian Kennedy

Time to Change - time to shine

I am one of the 1 in 4 who will develop a mental health problem during their lifetime, but for me it has enlightened me towards my creativity and the need I have to be creative and to speak out, whenever possible.

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I belong not assert I deserve enough to love me I forgive me I make mistakes to learn I'm not a diagnosis improbable not impossible in the meantime inner critic inner strength still sparkles Inner vision inside my shell inspires inspite intuition invisible invite to live issues it didn't frighten me today jokes journey to recovery jump knowledge takes a nap labelled by others lack of confidence laughs learning about life learning to let go learning to sail my own ship leeching less intimidating let go letting go life is for living light like a river bursting through limitless liquid sunshine little by little live lonely look for the adventure in things losing just a bit more fear lost love loved lyrics map of scars meaning memory mental adjustment mental battering mental knives middles milestone millstone mindfulness mood move on moving on music my grandfather's chuckle my life as a quilt my own special creation my own voice negative atmosphere negative black hole new new friends new glasses new ideas new memories new path new perspective on life no armour no coat no excuses no home no longer blank no need to remember no real chance to grow no roots no sense of self no sleepwalking not good enough not playing ball not quite there not raining on my parade not useless not words of endearment not yet ready to believe now I have a home nursing a cardboard covered cup of coffees nurturing oh sod it on contemplating my belly button on first looking into Chapman's Homer one bite at a time one breathe one day it will be me one spark opportunities outlet overeat pain parody passion past past influences patient patterns pay it forward peace permanent attachment to the internet personal fog pink pink snow poem poetic attempt poison positivity possibilities potential priceless pride progress protection protective wings puddle-jumping questions quilting rainbow random random acts of kindness real me reap happiness reassurance rebuilding recharging recovery red herrings red nose day regrouping remember me reminder replacement resonance resting revealed revelation revenge rhetorical question risking it RSVP ruby red running away safe said to hurt same players just different characters scares scary scatter kindness search see what you can find when you're not really looking seeing all things anew seeing with new eyes self-sabotage self-worth serenity shining through silence silent empty sing heartly singing sit a while with me six word stories sleeve slog small smiles snowy so hot solitude somewhere to lean sonnet spangles sparkle special mention spicy spirit spiritual home step forward stiffled creativity still a diamond stillness stop your influence strange but true strategies struggling against the bars stuck stuck/unstuck stupid success supermarket void support supporting role surgery survived suspicion take chances talents tang tear wiping tennis elbow thank you that elusive combination the "fish" that got away The B of the Bang the BK blues the day I learn to love me completely the eternal optimist the fear that I am nothing the human form bursting from the wood the moment I touched down the past is already perfect the puddle-jumper the reason we are here think myself a new way this bird has flown time to change today is good too dumb too hard to help too much energy too smart transparency transparent trauma trigger day true form still visible Trust truth try not to listen trying to control the uncontrollable ugly unburdened undeserving unexpectedly unfair unpicking unpolished unwilling unwritten value walking back walking on air warning signal we must meet your targets we're doing just fine weaving a rainbow weight weird news wellies when life gives you lemons make lemonade which round hole they can put this square peg into whispered who am I? whodunit willing to guide willing to see winning wisdom wiser not stupid words words unspoken working it through working on it working together wrapped up and loose yourself wrapped up in their ipods years of practice you are worth it not worth sh*t you too can have a nose like mine you'll break it you'll ruin it your book