A Whispered update

I weighed myself first thing today (as I do most days - recording the ups and downs) and the scales said 16st 5.75. This is whispered at the moment, as I'm not sure if it's a permanent loss yet or one that I may face a few times until I'm able to accept it as me and move on. Each loss requires a mental adjustment - it's like an internal dialogue: "I've lost this weight, but am I able to see myself as this weight or will I have an adjustment back, before I'm happy that that's now me?" May sound daft, but that's how it seems. One stone is beckoning and that will be a milestone in many ways and less of a millstone in others. So no fireworks for the moment, but if my weight stays around this for the next few days, I'll officially welcome it with the usual celebrations xx

PS just joined a Facebook group for Eating Disorder Awareness week which is next week, as I'm a reforming binge-eater. Each day is still a battle, but slowly my new strategies seem to be holding up.

Stuck/unstuck

At the moment my weight seems to be moving between 16st 11 and 16st 9. I'm having to fight my thoughts hard, as part of me still wants to hold on, part of me is fearful and I'm trying to fight that fear and move on. But now that I recognise this, I can acknowledge it, see if it is helping - no - and think myself a new way.

xx