Don't look at me too closely,
Don't tell me of my beauty,
For I've been told I'm undeserving
And so am not yet ready to believe
That there's anything good I could ever do
Or that I'm ever quite enough
For I was told "You're stupid"
And was never good enough.
I deserve enough to love me
I deserve enough to care
But compliments I bat away
Because I'm not quite there.
But one day I'll accept it
One day it will be me
And each day's a step towards it
The day I learn to love me,
Completely.
xx
4 comments:
Dear "A jewel shining through":
I like this; I like this very much.
In peace and love. xxx
Thank you. The first few lines coming into my head as I was ready to go to bed the other night, and the rest just followed. Luckily I keep pen and paper around just in case, to write down ideas, so that I don't forgot the ideas and can sleep.
Hi jewel,
I can relate so much to what you have shared with us.
I spent a lot of my life being told how stupid I was. It was so relentless that I believed the 'hype'.
Then I realised that I was better than the negativity. Finding inner peace and learning to love ourselves is indeed the key.
Thanks for this, Jewel.
With respect, Gary
Thank you Gary. I'm hoping to get some CBT to counter the echoes, as they are still present and pop back into my brain when I'm not looking. I've tried to be different with my son, nurturing and encouraging as best as I can. Luckily I an seemingly do it for him much better than I can do it to me, but each day I working on that.
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